"and dreams are made of emotion"

Moon in Scorpio
Sep 20, 2009 to Sep 23, 2009

I've heard that two rutting elk can lock horns for over a day. Of course, humans in a power struggle can easily exceed that, especially during Scorpio's Moon. Power issues are raised. But what's likely hidden is the truth about where that power lies. One opponent overthrows another, hoping to capture power. But is it really there? That's the contemplation this Moontime. Here's a clue: there's a treasure house full of the good stuff, just like the fairy tales always said. And you don't have to steal or envy the ones who seem to have it. All you need is to find your personal key. This Moon says, "Let your intuition lead." If you're stuck on something, visualize whatever you're holding onto eighty years from now. Impermanence seems scary. But like an old snakeskin, after a loss comes something vibrant and new. Celebrate yourself as a passionate, evolving being.

Things are actually extra dreamy for me today. Plus it's the time of the month, & so despite my rearranging my bookshelf & finally throwing really outdated stuff out (Mercury, Saturn, & even Venus OMG now in Virgo at work) this weekend, I'm still stuck. But I'm a little bit more hopeful now than last week. I got books on candle-making & flower-arranging, which all lead to full-fledged gardening (& I've been considering on reviving my dad's orchid collection) & creating other romantic indulgences (bath stuff, anyone? Mmmm LOL) for gifts & my personal consumption, at the very least. I'm also thinking of cooking more often again, even if I lost touch with my gusto for it ever since my kid sister & dad passed away. But, yeah, well, I really should be more creative with my hands again, hehe, even if I really can't manage alone. Sigh. At least while the household help's still with us, huh? I'm glad she was able to clear the Southeast portion of the garden/house after all this time. I guess I'll take time out to rearrange & declutter everything by Friday, but don't worry, I'll make time for reading this Thursday (from 10am onwards) & Saturday (2pm-6pm). I'll also try to indulge myself as much as I can after all the fuss. Sigh. For some reason I kinda want to be left alone, unless there's a date in tow, LOL but this could be just my PMS talking.

But anyway, I'm thankful for everything I've had so far. I should give myself another birthday reading because the last one was actually damn accurate, haha. I hope to get my reading done professionally by somebody else, though, just to make sure. But I'll post mine soon, LOL, even if I have 3 other readings lined up. (I know, Mercury retrograde to blame!)

Oh, well, wish me luck. Funny how I've been thinking about The Star card earlier today, & then a Twitter friend decides to tweet about it! Yay, so apt! Right, Tin? ;)

"When the Star card is upright in a tarot spread it indicates that it is a good time for the questioner to have their natal birth chart & current astrological transits interpreted so that they may view a larger picture of their life patterns & how certain situations have come about in their life. The chart offers an external perspective of one's life and can help offer insight and encouragement.

"In a reading the Star card presents itself when the questioner has literally stripped himself or herself bare. The spilt water erupts as tears and all of the old, blocked emotions are accepted as pretence is given up. Often the Star card will symbolise a need to cry.

Oh, my, LOL. Yeah, hopefully the "spa for the soul" experience will push through, even if it will rather cost me much. Anything to feel a little bit better than yesterday... for my birthday. :))

picture-trailing & then some

Moon in Cancer
Sep 12, 2009 to Sep 14, 2009

You might be a little sensitive during this Moon. Unfortunately, everyone else is too. If you find yourself in deep water now, look to your intuition to get you out. The real issues are often hidden on Cancer Moon days, or dealt with sideways. People tend to circle the emotional wagons, reach for their antacids, and privately nurse their wounds. The collective unconscious is four years old and wants its mommy. Go ahead, seek nurture today. It's like that children's story where the baby bird, tumbled from its nest, quizzes all comers, "Are you my mother?" Only you're looking for the World Mother. You'll find her in a cozy place where you feel safe and loved; in a cup of tea, a mid-day retreat to your bed, or a smile from a friend. Whether or not you have issues, it's a good Moontime for sharpening your emotional intelligence. Distinguish foods that nourish (both real and symbolic) from those that bring heartburn.

My actual Moon in my natal chart is in Cancer. & I'm feeling rather somber again. But last Saturday I had the time of my life because I've been laughing a lot with my clients & friends. It's funny how the last time I saw my culture vulture pal Lornadahl was in February, while Mercury was also in retrograde, & I just lost my 10-year-old bedroom + house + Student Council office keys, along with them tiny new Yale trinkets for my supposedly new locker. I was supposed to be reading for her, but she treated me to a free brunch, nevertheless haha, yay, & I was just all too happy to return the favor come dinnertime.

Indeed, life is good, & I'm glad to get insightful feedback from repeat clients. & I absolutely love it when things get relaxed, to the point of casual, between me & my querents. Everybody needs a breather, anyway, especially when them readings become way too overwhelming. But thank you, folks, for trusting me & all that. I've always wanted to present myself as a welcome break from the norm, with my being upbeat & liberal, brimming with pop culture references, & not passing judgment on too quickly. Hopefully I don't come across as too biased or limiting at any point, but I mainly go with the flow, so to speak, during every session.

Speaking of going with the flow, I'll definitely allow you darlings to take pictures & notes of your readings, just so you'll have better recall, & get the most out of our sessions. Taking pictures of the cards can be painstaking, though, as if they refuse to be photographed at any time, then uploading them is doubly agonizing. But I'll do my best, haha, & I would appreciate it if you share your 'fan shots' with me & the rest of the blogosphere. ♥



You know it's Lornadahl's when it's got lipstick marks on it LOL.
Taken by the Scorpio grrl with Gemini rising herself.




CBTL's book brigade! ♥ Don't forget to drop your old books for children at your favorite branch so that they can donate them soon enough.




Lornadahl choosing her decks.




Lornadahl's initial draw. (Sorry, blurry take!)




Lornadahl's Planets spread. I decided to have the Phantasmagoric Theater Tarot deck debut in pictures like this, & use it to read for her to match her colorful, larger-than-life persona.

1) Moon - Home Life, Domestic Matters, & Emotional States - King of Wands
2) Sun - Achievement, Personal Reward, & Optimism - 10 of Swords
3) Mercury - Working Life, Career Prospects, & Mental Abilities - 3 of Coins
4) Venus - Love Life, Relationships, & Feelings - Judgment
5) Mars - Conflict & Struggles - Ace of Cups
6) Jupiter - Gain & Expansion - 3 of Cups
7) Saturn - Restriction & Structure - The Sun
8) Earth (possibly) - Self - Ace of Swords

With the following Significators on the side: the Queen of Cups, 8 of Cups, 9 of Cups, & 4 of Coins (LOL I love it how this was so literal! Lornadahl was limping & I was sitting pretty on my table when she arrived). Will expound later. But The Sun card illustrates how her flamboyant Gemini rising is getting in the way of her actual sexy Sun sign Scorpio.

Lornadahl's view of her Planets spread.




For Lornadahl... The Tower card signifies how you will start a revolution at work (yay for the proverbial shock factor! LOL) & the Hanged Man merely suggests how you should keep your right knee elevated to speed up the healing process. But take care of your limbs & feet all the more now.




For Tangerine. Look at the Temperance & the Lovers cards, HAHA, whee!
Again, shot by Lornadahl.




What Lornadahl drew for me, hee. ♥
HAY NAKUUU, SANA NAMAN! :))


Anyway, I'm happy that my esoteric buddy + fellow Pinoy Tarot Enthusiast Francisbear showed me his brand new Vanessa Tarot from Ly Narciso, & my God, the cards are cuter in person. Guess what my first card was? I'm still laughing out loud from that moment I drew it. The cards speak in whispers, & they're adorably kitschy, & they'd be perfect for my sassy girl clients (which make up a huge part of my demographic LOL). Because of that, I might as well try to give one away to a lucky patron/follower! ♥



I hope the coming weekend (September 19th) would be just as fun, if not so much more. For weekday warriors, however, don't worry, next Thursday (September 24th) could be your day. :D & since I'm on a roll, I might make myself available the next weekend (September 26th), even if you're supposed to all know by now that next Friday is my Judgment day.

If things pick up very soon for me, I might also throw this nifty feng shui guidebook for 2010 in the mix of what's up for grabs here. Let's see. I wonder what lucky Chinese zodiac sign will be winning this raffle. I'm still drafting the terms & conditions, & I might just have to wait until the end of the month, in time for this blog's 3rd anniversary, & when Mercury's going direct again.

Happy 09/09/09!

Who would've thought I'd live until this day? LOL. Back in 2001 I was so depressed I didn't even realize I'd live until my birthday the following year, studying about tarot, to boot. Tarot, for me, along with my ex-fiance that time, was the best gift ever by the Universe. Now here I am trying to make further sense of my existence & purpose in any way that I can, despite myself.

Anyway, I'm this happy, because amidst the blasted Mercury retrograde & my failing day job scorecard & the horrendous weather (I almost swam to & fro work the last time! But good thing I was wearing my trusty, albeit now soiled, ivory raincoat & purple Plueys) I'm still blessed, after all. ♥ Thank you, Universe. Thank you, Mom. Though I hope to be out of this rut that I'm currently stuck in very soon. I'd rather not think about it, seriously. I have faith that I'll surpass things. But I'm usually suicidal on my birthday, & that's like 16 days away. I even had my hair cut again, a bit like Natsu Ayuhara of Rival Schools. LOL I miss that game. Hmm, maybe blue streaks could do the trick. LOL.

So, well, as a thank-you gift to my repeat clients (those who've come back to see me at least for the 2nd time this year) & successful referees, I'm giving away free readings to 9 lucky patrons that you all can claim until the end of the month. Just be patient with me. More or less I'm using this fun spread, but I'll also think of something that will use 9 cards LOL. Hooray. I'm not sure if you folks will appreciate having at least your first names listed here, but I'll post later anyway, at least in the Comments section. Again, thank you very much, & I hope to see you all again soon, especially all you lovely first-timers! ♥

Before I forget, finally the latest local TV feature on Tarot's up, with Francisbear & Ly in focus! Haha, cheers! I'm too chicken shit to appear on local TV like that (even if I was featured twice unexpectedly & briefly 3 years ago LOL yikes) but hopefully I can do so bravely in the near future. & for once, I think this was a pretty balanced episode. Too bad I slept the day away that fateful Saturday because of the weather & my pharyngitis, but thank God for YouTube, yay!



I know I should be watching the crazy local horror movie about Tarot, but I really don't like scary stuff, & I hate the way Tarot's being portrayed there, & I'd rather die or watch Up again in 3D than even give it further publicity, but maybe I should, just to be fair. I'll ask my girls (or my brother) if they'd want to LOL. Hmmm.

Oh, well, I should get going now. I'll try to plurk or tweet down the street again LOL on my lunchtime later 4pm EST. I'll be drafting the rest of my schedules of the year, so I can post them here. Sorry for the backlog. Yeah, the reading transcriptions & the Up movie feature still in line! Stay tuned! Oh, & don't forget to show me some love here, if you haven't yet! =XOXO=

Merc ret in Libra at work

Moon in Pisces
Sep 3, 2009 to Sep 5, 2009

On a Pisces Moon, think foot massage. Soak your soles in a calming lavender bath. Feet are ruled by Pisces; maybe it's the way they cushion against the hard ground. Let yourself drift and dream today. Forget that pressured list in your day planner; don't bother with a watch. You'll accomplish more by letting your intuition guide you from this to that. Mood enhancers are films, music and poetry. But watch the spaced-out bag boy at the supermarket; he's likely to leave your ice cream on the checkout stand. Steer clear of whiners and martyrs. There's moisture in the air-fog, mist, tears. Better to convert self-pity or sentimentality into a broader compassion for the world. And if you've let your meditation practice lapse, this is a great Moon to return. Find the window that opens to your one-ness with all.

I love getting massages, especially footrubs. Though I really should be careful about accepting offers for those the next time, LOL, & I should splurge on paraffin wax treatments for my walkers & hands more. I tried looking for nice shoes on my way home yesterday when I had my sim card upgraded, but VNC most especially was a letdown, & I got tired of looking for more, eventually. The trip to Globe Telecom for the sim card upgrade (since my actual active number on my calling cards got busted last Thursday) was a big FAIL, anyway, & I need to get everything settled by Tuesday. But while I'm resting until then, just get in touch with me via this blog, or my Facebook page, or Plurk, or hell, even Twitter.

Anyway, I still have a lot of work to do, but I'm slacking off, no thanks to this year's last Mercury retrograde. I'm trying not to think about it, but how can I not? Especially when my lilac SkullCandy headphones & tiny outdated phone gave way, along with my 2+-year-old sim card & our washing machine. So far, Whirlpool's cool like that, but I still need a sturdier pair of headphones & my actual mobile number up & running again. Please bear with me. Even my raffling off readings & this Tarot Basics gift set will have to wait. But thanks to everyone who's made my Tarot Weekdays last month successful, especially you repeaters! ♥ I also love my new clients. I had so much fun. One of them even promised me she'd be back by the end of the month, haha. I'll wait for you then, sweetheart!

August was really awesome. If you remember this birthday reading I gave to myself last year, the Queen of Wands was really dead-on! I'm not sure if I'll pass my day job scorecard for the month, though, but I still had a rockin' (yeah, sexy even! LOL) awesome time. That card has to be the most significant yet in the spread. I'm rather worried about the last card, which is the 7 of Cups, but maybe I shouldn't be. ♥

If only I was feeling better & the weather was okay, I would've gone to the Construction Show Manila this weekend, but too bad. It would've been an interesting convention, plus it would've been another chance for me to rediscover SM Mall of Asia (even if I hate it there, seriously, & I hardly go there alone). But let's look forward to more eco-friendly events & whatnot.

Speaking of getting in touch more with Mother Earth, I've been thinking of getting crystal bracelets for myself for my birthday. There's this cute red garnet bracelet that would be auspicious for me as per feng shui, then there's the 9-chakra that would cater to almost my every need, & a haunting black obsidian piece that I should be really using. But this was brought to my attention when I was about to get the black obsidian bracelet (& somebody else already bought it):

Angel Aura Quartz - excellent Aura Cleanser and acts to stimulate and clear all the Chakra Energy Centers, helps with emotional trauma and hurt, constipation on all levels, toxicity, multidimensional healing, efficient receptor for programming, enhances muscle-testing, cleans and enhances the organs, immune system, brings the body into balance, soothes burns.

Clear quartz fused with silver and platinum. These are great meditation tools as they relieve stress and help you move into deep peace. Angel Aura Quartz protectively aids you in your efforts to remember past lives, channel higher knowledge, and assists communication with higher beings such as angels and guides; and helps you gain access to the Akashic records.

Hmm, interesting, eh? :)) Lately I've been talking to a new friend about guardian angels & spirit guides. I know I have a powerful couple of them by my side, a la bodyguards, but I don't feel them anymore ever since my dad passed away last year. Oh, well. Ascendant (white LOL) energy, so be it. Let's see if it's still there by the end of the month. Clear quartz is too much for me sometimes, but hopefully, with the platinum & silver infusion, this particular quartz stays with me much, much longer.

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Once you've clicked on the badge & seen the tiny yellow "vote" button, you'll be asked to log in or create an account. Signing up is pretty easy. Basically, all you'll need is a username, an email address, & maybe even a userpic & your date of birth (just so they know you're not younger than 13 years old, hehe). You should be done in a jiffy. Feel free to leave feedback for my readings for you in the Comments section. Yay. I've already given out free, if not discounted, readings already to those who've cast their votes. Don't forget the raffle, which I'll be posting more about soon, at least via Plurk.

Up next, I'm featuring the super cute animated Up movie from Disney-Pixar, a couple of transcribed readings (& we'll see the difference between a tarot reading & a tarot dialogue), & outlined schedules for the month (but what can you expect on a Mercury retrograde really?). For now, I can only assure you, that on Saturday, September 12th, I'll be available for readings from 10am onwards, even if it's my kid brother's birthday. Just let me know. Thanks again. ♥