Friday, April 01, 2011

on pop love suicide & planetary retrogrades, I think

So, yeah, I'm back. Blame Mercury gone retrograde for it, hehe. I'm still swamped with work & I've taken a couple or so days off to feel better, because it'll be another long weekend for me. But I can't wait for the next timeout. Especially with my Mars in Scorpio energy kinda stirring within again. Ugh.

But anyway, let me just post this poem I keep quoting during my readings so I won't forget about it. I stumbled upon this years ago, & I keep forgetting to get my own copy of The Prophet for more inspiration. Sigh. But I had this poem in my head for the longest time. When I think about it, it may be the perfect expression of my Venus-Uranus conjunction (in Scorpio in my 9th House).

"But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
& let the winds of heaven dance between you.

Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing & dance together & be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
& stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
& the oak tree & the cypress grow not in each other's shadow."

Don't get me wrong, though. I value loyalty & commitment; & welcome clingy, touchy-feely love in a romantic relationship — Libra, reprazent! — but I also respect personal space. But anyone sick with longing would find that hard to do.

Why am I posting this, if you may ask? No, not just because it was the ex-fiance's birthday recently, but also love readings have always been the hardest to deal with. I kinda give up. Where is all this pining for another person coming from? My clients have really strong personalities & their independent streaks are as bad as mine, & maybe that's the reason why they're drawn to me in the first place, but why is everybody inconsolable lately? & what about me? Will I even have the chance to ever be happy? My cards have been claiming so since 2008, but where am I really heading now?