making time for QUICK updates

Yay, I'm back! I can't believe this will have to be my very first post here for 2013. Anyway, I'm really swamped with stuff to do that I hardly even have time to fix my room anymore, but I've promised to myself that this Holy Week will be THAT time for it, & thank God I've even found reinforcements (FINALLY!)

I really have to make sure all my Tarot decks & New Age (astrology, feng shui, what-have-you) books are already in order by then, for easier retrieval, among other things. God bless my babies. Thank you, Universe, for letting me have them.

BTW, a dear return client (Virgo Sun, Scorpio Moon & Mars, Libra Rising) actually gave me a copy of my beloved Tarot of The Magical Forest earlier this year, & I really thank her for her generosity. I gave her an Angel Aura quartz bracelet in return, & it looks like she's becoming more spiritual as we speak. I'm really happy for her.

& finally I have a Mage: The Ascension deck in possession, after more than 2 years of getting entranced with it. That was the very first deck that gave me quite an accurate reading, with just 10-11 cards, & I will never forget the 8 of Wands card there, that sharply illustrates how my life is now with  ThetaHealing®. The owner of that deck's last message to me via SMS was, "Remember who you are." I finally replied, "Thank you, I now remember who & what I am," & he said, "Stay Awake." I hope all is well with him, even if we don't really speak to each other anymore, even if I see him around at least twice a month. I am still floored how I got such a rare deck still sealed from a pure, loving source, & I still get pretty amazing results with it. It's still a very dark, scary deck despite how it looks more welcoming now, but I'm really having fun everytime I see the Knight of Swords there (aka the Knight of Dynamism), & I'm reminded of my newfound fascination with Lord Shiva, hehe. It's just funny how me & my fun double Aquarian protege (who also owns this deck & was bewildered to find out I already had my own, haha) were talking about Shiva on a Full Moon (my Lunar return) last December, a month before I received my deck in the mail:

Me: If I have Kali & Shiva as my inner deities, then WHY THE HELL do I still look like this?!
N: Because the Universe loves irony.

WTH. Fine. It sure does. :P

& I really should talk more about  ThetaHealing® in detail, but I'll need more time, energy, & space. For now, let me just tell you that I'm finally a certified Basic DNA2, Advanced DNA2, & even a [R][H][Y][T][H][M] Practitioner, & our Manifesting Abundance module's coming up this weekend. I'm still worrying how I'm going to sign up for Intuitive Anatomy this April, but I should decide by early next week. But I'm happy how FINALLY my uh, healing capabilities are FULLY validated, &  ThetaHealing® makes my readings so much more accurate (& so much more EXHAUSTING, mind you). I'm really overwhelmed with all the friends that I've made; the things I've manifested (like that One Billion Rising movement, for starters, because I'm sick & tired of misogyny) & foreseen (look at the Death card from the RWS deck & you'll know what exactly I saw, among other things in other ways); the new knowledge I'm acquiring (which leads to a whole buncha new books to finish that end up cluttering my space, LOL); & the energy this whole shebang is requiring of me. I've accomplished quite a number of distance healings for friends & clients, & OMG I got fantastic results. I'm still working on my dog, my brother, my surly housekeeper in her late 50's, & MYSELF, but I'm getting there. Should you wish to try it with me, just remember to keep an open mind, & bear with me as we go along. For now I can say it's a very good complement to psychotherapy, but this can do so much more than just that. Like in a friend's case, chickenpox, would you believe? :D It also would take care of my backaches, but I still need to do something about my weird knee pains. (& yes, supplements will still be a huge part of the whole program... don't ditch your traditional medicine just yet!)

My reawakening via  ThetaHealing® can be aptly described by this:

This dazzling piece is called "Blossoming," drawn by one of my favorite local artists + clients Katrina Pallon (Sagittarius Sun, Virgo Moon, Aries Rising, LOL, & I must mention her brooding Mercury in Scorpio & piquant Venus in Aquarius in her 8th House, which would explain that underlying sinister sensuality in most of her works) during her Venus return (yes, post-Ascension, which means it IS a very exciting & potent time for her, ahem) this year. I am hoping to have a replica of her very gorgeous "Oiran in Triangles" later this year, & experience her Tarot-inspired pieces while I'm at it. I was supposed to get that very painting before it was bought by someone else, as a culmination to Saturn transiting my Sun sign Libra (lest you forget), but that period became so difficult that I had to postpone my claiming it indefinitely. Oh, well. It's still funny to think how I met her a couple of years back via her "Crane Wife," & I ran excitedly to her (rather idiotically, actually, holy crap) with The Sun card from my Sacred Rose deck in one hand & the Queen of Cups card from my Chinese deck in the other. Come to think of it, those 2 cards did have a blaring message for her, aside from depict her & her works very accurately. Yay.

Indeed,  ThetaHealing® has left me working with white & pink lotuses like crazy this year, so I'll have my logo redesigned with one or so, to honor my uhm, re-glorified Sacred Feminine (eep).

ThetaHealing® actually helped me survive commemorating my dad's 5th death anniversary last March 11th & my late kid sister's birthday last March 16th. I would've gone completely crazy, but thank God I didn't. I was able to enjoy a few meals out with my brother as a result, especially that complimentary dinner at this new joint paying lovely tribute to native fare with a sweet global twist for our mother's 66th birthday the other night, & we also got to check out an art fair in one of the hippest parks in the metro, which my Painting major late sister would've liked very much. I hope I do well all throughout this month, & until my certification for Intuitive Anatomy (dear God, please help me), & hell, throughout the rest of the year, especially my next Jupiter return (whoopeedoo) until the end of my days (lessee if I finally get to live past at least my 2nd Saturn return!) Last year was crazy, bordering on self-destructive, like you have no idea how. Lessee if this year will be so much more forgiving, considering Saturn is now highlighting my natal 8th-10th Houses, hehe, conjunct my Venus & Mars, jeezus. Remind me to make a yearly forecast for myself again STAT via my Tarot cards.

Anyway, I'll also be celebrating my 8th anniversary for my brand, & with that said, I'm giving away further quick card readings online on my Facebook Page. If you haven't Liked me yet there, please do. Remember, my offer ONLY applies for the time specified, on that post where it would be announced, & for people who actually have subscribed to my Page. I just gave away readings earlier, so I'll be having another round by next week, Holy Week-ish. Probably Black Saturday, who knows? It's usually one of my favorite days of the year. Stay tuned, as I could offer quick readings for up to 13 people in an hour's time. Or even 21 (+8), hehe. Whatever. I like keeping people on their toes, as it's all part of the fun.

If you're still up for Tarot readings face-to-face along the Makati CBD, I'm available next Monday, March 25th, from 11:30am-3:00pm. Email me at sp.lovecraft[at]gmail[dot]com for your schedule. If I decide to take up Intuitive Anatomy right after Easter Sunday, my next schedule should be on Tuesday, April 23rd, 10am-6pm. Let me know, & have patience with me. I have already increased my rates by more than 20% since last year, especially now that I'm doing  ThetaHealing®, so please be advised. (You get more than what you're paying for, anyway, like your astrology explained, one free follow-up answer via email or FB, angel/crystal/color therapy, & feng shui advice!) But I'm working on a loyalty program for return clients, which should include a free 30-minute birthday/holiday (whichever comes first) reading online (via IM) for every 3 paying referrals. I'll keep you all posted, especially those already eligible for the offer. ♥

If you have any questions or comments, let me know here! I want to know who else is reading my posts. If you're brave enough, I can even give you your Tarot card for the day on the spot! :P

For now, let me leave you with an ardent young client's message to me via SMS a few hours ago:

"You're super blessed with your gifts & I'm sure a loooot of people appreciate it." --Anj

Thanks so much! I really hope so! Happy weekend, everyone! Have a very sweet 2013!

"Escape is never the safest path..." but honestly, what is?

Had a most surreal Good Friday when I had another reading that bordered on the supernatural/paranormal/occult, using my new Revelations Tarot deck. (Of all decks, it had to be that.) It made me re-think what I was supposed to do with the rest of my life, what I need to do with my Scorpio/Plutonian influences, & why I studied Tarot in the first place (ah, yes, to unlock the secrets of the Universe: 1) who am I?, 2) why am I here?, 3) when will I die?, 4) where am I headed?, 5) when will the world end?). Reading on a Good Friday + Full Moon is a most heady + bizarre + cathartic + cataclysmic experience. Especially while being powered by hazelnut soy cafe mocha, haha. & I spent the rest of my day doing readings, even remotely. I'm still wrapping my overdue email, though. I hope to be finished within the day.

I then had a dream about the Grim Reaper yesterday, who looked more like the figure in the Death card from my Morgan-Greer deck (& I'd rather not post images of cards like that, lest I'd attract their energy in my life), when I finally managed to doze off. There were grim songs playing, but songs I didn't mind hearing on loop, like probably Type O Negative's Love You To Death & tracks from Marilyn Manson. I could barely remember what was that main song buzzing in my head until I looked this up: **WARNING: NSFW**



& then it hit me. How could I forget this when this was one of the songs I personally liked because I could relate to it. I liked this & Korn's "Kick The PA" from the Spawn movie soundtrack, but I didn't expect this music video to be that grotesque + stylish. Haha. Emphasis on stylish! Very controversial, kinda relevant, with them goth Jesus & Mary depictions, just in time for the season. Lady Gaga won't ever be this captivating, I swear. :P

But yeah, this song has killer lines I feel like I myself would've written:

"Oh, Mary, to be this young is oh-so scary."

or

"You never said forever could hurt like this."

& of course,

"I wanna live, I wanna love, but it's a long hard road out of hell."

& I really didn't want to live anymore around that time, a few years before I stumbled upon Tarot. Tarot encompassed everything I really like: psychology, art, religion = mysticism = spirituality, & it helped me incorporate my penchant for astrology with my daily life, even if it had to take me 2 major tragedies in the family to accept what I already have in my possession. Everything I prayed for when I was younger (wisdom, strength, grace, all for peace of mind & stability's sake) finally manifested in my deck of cards (& a whole buncha other decks). I still am fumbling through it, even after 10 years of studying it & waiting with bated breath to get validation for my readings, but I believe now, more than ever, that it's meant to be, especially with how creepy it is all of a sudden for me to check back on my Midheaven (IC). This was from my sample Career Advice astrology report from Tarot.com:

Neptune in 10th house

You tend to have high aspirations and spiritual goals for your life. You enjoy helping others and are very idealistic. Whatever you achieve in your life will come from your own efforts without the help of your family. You are very sensitive to the feelings of the people around you and could be a very good diplomat. Chemistry and liquids could be related to your job or profession. You could experience great confusion when trying to choose your vocation, and may have some changes in your professional life. You will have to learn to be more decisive and consistent, leaving all your fantasies and doubts behind.

Ruler of 10th house ( Jupiter ) in 6th House

Your professional success is related to your ideas on service, & your ability to produce changes or transformations in yourself as well as others. No matter what profession you choose, it will be more gratifying for you if you feel that you are helping others. This astrological position favors professions linked to medicine, therapy or nutrition. If you do not have a career, you are likely to work in a company that provides some kind of service.

So yeah, I think I'm a bit happier now with where I am, though I'm still looking for more satisfaction & structure. & I most certainly can use more ideas on what to do with the rest of my life, aside from water sports, photography, cooking, yoga, crystal/color healing, & writing.

I think the point of me posting all this is I've re-realized what my role is as a reader. Regardless of what my seekers choose to do, all I can do is sadly be as objective as I can be, even if I personally negate their life choices. I can only present all the options available to them, but whether or not they choose world annihilation or world peace, I cannot really put a stop to it, not just yet. As much as it pains me that I'm like creating monsters along the way, I should remind myself that they already came to me with their plans fermenting within themselves. I can only shed light to those plans; help them acknowledge their Shadow. Whether or not they deviate from their paths at the last time after getting a reading, that's all up to them. Tarot can only help us become more responsible for ourselves, but it's still up us to actually do it. I am only like a lighthouse at some dock at the end of the day. They can't say I didn't warn them, however. I've already done my part, & I really should detach from my readings.

All I pray for now is for everyone to make the best decisions as much as possible that can help save this dying world, & stick with those. For now I'm truly grateful for the gift of divination bestowed upon me, & I acknowledge a Higher Power at work, that I am not at all omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient. We are all free to live our lives the way we want to, but we should know that we still have our respective roles to play & duties to fulfill.

Oh, I haven't really decided upon my favorite card yet from the Revelations deck. Maybe the Star, because she's pretty especially when upright, & you can never really go wrong even with it reversed. Somehow I regret buying this deck, but I believe it has its purpose, too, especially with my complicated, contradictory Libra nature. :)



& maybe the Star would be the most apt, especially in validating my chosen "line of work" du jour, especially upon hearing this prayer over some FM radio station on my way home after that most crucial reading, "Make me a channel of hope & blessings." I really hope I get to become so despite myself, & that my own journey from that long hard road out of Hell would serve as an inspiration to others clawing their way out as well. Have a sacred weekend.

Mercury schmercury

As usual, I've been gone for so long. I'm so sorry. I've been a very sick girl since The Collective Art Fair & I'm still getting my moxie back. I look like shit, I feel like shit. I've treated a few random people like shit, too, unfortunately, just this month. Not even this pricey staycation at a tucked-away chi-chi place in my most favorite city & a getaway to the 2nd best beach destination in the world (my 2nd trip, too, for this year, alone at that!) helped make me feel better. I spent so much on doctor's fees, antihistamines, heavy-duty multivitamins, band-aids (yes, I injured my right thumb while jetskiing, WTF, after my hands went numb from parasailing solo), premier transport services, O2 (that's oxygen for you), cough remedies (Solmux & Sinecod & Strepsils) & ooh, high-grade honey products for this month alone & it's disheartening. Add to that my damaged hair woes, my blotched face (no thanks to allergies & my drat period), & deepening frown/scowl lines from all these complaint letters I had to write this month. Despite my best efforts to stay healthy & sane. I hate this month. What a rip-off. But I'm still happy for them little highlights I've enjoyed. & I have fellow Air signs as loyal clients lately. I'll throw you ladies a surprise, don't worry. But I'm glad my readings are spot-on for them. I just hope it would be like that for the rest of my clientele.

I still have a couple of lengthy emailed readings to send out later today, & I have so many other things to review here, like finally, my own Revelations Tarot deck (YOWZA! THE UNIVERSE LOVES ME!), my new massage oil, my local Ayurveda experience, & this awesome Heal & Energize Your Life talk at my new favorite haunt Corner Tree Cafe that I attended just last week. I've talked to Ms. Rosan Cruz about having a chakra healing seminar, & I'm hoping my friends/students can go before Ms. Moni Platt leaves the country next month. Should be slated around April 5, Maundy Thursday, 9pm-6pm, within Makati. If fellow budding healers/energy workers are interested, please leave a comment here so we can discuss this. The seminar should be limited to 20 people max. I'm hoping I can bring at least 4-6 more people in. I've learned so much during the 2-hour-talk, & it was a wonderful, serendipitous experience. I'm worried it might not push through, but I got the Healing card from my Osho Zen deck (cf. King of Cups) for it, so yeah, I do pray it happens. We really could use it. I've been meaning to study Reiki ever since 2007, for starters, & about time I'd be ready for it.

I'm also trying to tidy up my space. I've figured I'll just stay at home today & finish everything I need to work on. (That's exactly what this Mercury retrograde energy is for, yeah? But if only Mercury didn't have to be in Pisces. I was already revved up when there was a Sun-Mercury Rx conjunct in Aries, only to be stuck like Velcro again, argh.) It was the most quiet Gemini Moon night, btw, I've ever had last night. But the awesome star-studded must-watch feel-good Muppets movie made up for it. Quite fitting to watch during a Mercury in Pisces in retrograde season, eh? "For them lovers, dreamers, & Me." Heh. & I'm beginning to appreciate song-&-dance numbers in movies (especially this fantastic brief [500] Days of Summer moment with Hall & Oates in the background, haha). & by checking my online movie transaction logs, I haven't been to my favorite cinema since August last year! :( So I guess I deserve a break.

& a break I shall continue to have within the year, especially after stumbling upon this article on my News Feed earlier today. HOLY SHIT, THE STORY OF MY LIFE RIGHT HERE!

"Your life is precarious. When you were in high school and college, you treated your mortality like it was a crappy purse. You stomped on it, broke a strap, let a vodka bottle spill out and ruin the leather. You did all of this believing it would all be repaired while you were sleeping, and it usually was. You reach a point, however, when the leather stays torn, when the piece of crap bag becomes beaten beyond repair. Simply put, you have to take a more proactive role in maintaining your happiness and well-being. You’re not just someone watching their own life from afar. You’re in it now. And if you don’t take care of it, it will fall to pieces."

"There’s a certain kind of beauty with being reckless with your body and mind. Closing the chapter on that and actively becoming the person you’re going to be feels great but it’s also a tad bittersweet."

"Sometimes you want to go back to being the person you were before all the bad stuff happened, but you know that’s impossible. So you just bid adieu to that time and look towards your future. (FYI, it looks super bright!)"

& that, ladies & gentlemen, is how I got into Tarot in the 1st place, about 10 years ago. I'm still flailing around. Anyway, I can never thank my friends & eventually family for helping me bounce back from my self-destructive heydays. I'll really just do my best to stay out of trouble from now on, even if my impatience & impetuousness are getting the best of me again. (I promise not to talk to strangers today, lest I'd lash out at them unsuspectingly, under a crazy Sun-Pluto square, on my Lunar return.) I can't believe I'm this old na, even if I still keep getting mistaken for a 25/27- year-old brat. I miss my youth, but I'm just so glad I'm at this stage in my life where I'm really beginning to enjoy my existence as I now know my purpose more here. I just don't want to be too serious yet like how I've been ever since, & I've been contemplating on childlessness like hell earlier. I mean, if you've been reading this blog since day one, or if you know me in person, you should know by now I don't want kids EVER. (OK, maybe just one, if I do get married, haha, whateverrr, but I'll be 40 in a few years & I'm still not taking care of myself as much as I'm supposed to? So how's that gonna happen? No, I don't want to read my cards about it.)

(& no thanks to that article as well as this season, I've been thinking again about how I've made my ex-fiance suffer so much when all he wanted primarily was to be just some "gas filler" (& I'd be Lightning McQueen, LOL) even if he did promise to laze around a beach in possibly Corsica with me, among other things, if we do manage to grow old together. Today is his 30th birthday, actually, & I can only wish him the best from afar this way. [Yes, I'm quite older than him, but quite as immature.] I still love him for being so kind to me during our time together, but maybe being apart like this is much better for the both of us in the long run. I'm still hoping he's already forgiven me, even if it's all I've ever asked the heavens after our disdainful breakup.)

Anyway, my scatterbrained self is going off-tangent again. But lemme share with you how last night's coincidental Twitter discussion was about The Empress card. I've befriended a young artist who's getting to learn how to read Tarot & when I RT'd The Tarot Lady's draw of the Empress reversed, she mentioned she got her, too. So I asked her what does She represent to you now? So she gave me the usual meaning for it, while I said, literally, it could mean me taking myself out on a date (again), honoring myself, having a Me Party, & Miss Piggy declaring herself irreplaceable. HAHA. No, seriously. Tarot's much more fun to learn when you begin to realize how literal they can be (& that's how you get crazy accurate readings sometimes). #tarottips

I'll probably hold another Tarot-reading workshop in May. I can't wait to surf + skimboard (this was actually fun this month, haha) next month & then laze around a much quieter beach weeks after. I believe in signs all the more now, & I know I'll be back by the sea once I'm done. But first, must declutter, must email, must revamp this blog layout (watch out for a really girly display, haha), & must realign everything else. I've wasted too much time already on a wrong platform so I'm working my way back here. :)