Saturday, August 18, 2007

on yin & yang

I’m sick again & I hate it. I can barely concentrate but I might as well make an update here. So far, I’ve lost one potential client because of the weather, but I had my best friend pay me for a reading this week & I’ll be meeting a new one next week. As usual, proceeds will go to maintaining my departed youngest sister’s stead & Catholic Mass offerings, but I’m really happy how things are turning out. Now all I have to do is get my voice back & be strong enough to conduct sessions & resume my usual credit verification duties.

There are a few cards I want to discuss today. These cards usually are alarming once they’re drawn, but looking at them more closely gives a whole new perspective.

First off, the Three of Swords. In order to come to a conclusion with one’s misery, one must bridge the gap between one’s thoughts & feelings. The head & the heart may say different things, but if one can reach a compromise between opposing stances, then enlightenment will arise. How Zen.

Then the Seven of Wands, as aptly put by Kat Black of the Golden Tarot, reminds us to take a stand in order for us to rise above our struggles, to never give up, as long as we know we’re in the right of way.

As for the Devil, it can be a sign that you are gaining control, or at least awareness, of your weaknesses or addictions. Time to step up & fully overcome all that.

Lastly, the Moon can only mean one thing: that the Seeker should have more sleep to regain energy & calm his agitated mind. In conjunction with the card’s traditional meaning, dreams have an important message & we should pay close attention to whatever we remember.

There’s something scary about the Nine of Coins that I perceived last month, but for the life of me, I can’t remember now. Seeing her cloaked in black & gold is charming & disturbing at the same time.

I wonder where this sense of dread is coming from.

Anyway, the yearly book fair that I’m always excited about is just around the corner, & I can’t wait to check out the goods at discount prices available. Will I get a new deck this time? I sure hope so!

Thursday, August 02, 2007

this is a list of what Tarot helps you to do


  1. Stop taking so much notice of how you feel. How you feel is how you feel. It’ll pass soon. What you’re thinking is what you’re thinking. It’ll go too. Tell yourself that whatever you feel, you feel; whatever you think, you think. Since you can’t stop yourself thinking, or prevent emotions from arising in your mind, it makes no sense to be proud or ashamed of either. You didn’t cause them. Only your actions are directly under your control. They’re the only proper cause of pleasure or shame.

  2. Let go of worrying. It often makes things worse. The more you think about something bad, the more likely it is to happen. When you’re hair-trigger primed to notice the first sign of trouble, you’ll surely find something close enough to convince yourself it’s come.

  3. Ease up on the internal life commentary. If you want to be happy, stop telling yourself you’re miserable. People are always telling themselves how they feel, what they’re thinking, what others feel about them, what this or that event really means. Most of it’s imagination. The rest is equal parts lies and misunderstandings. You have only the most limited understanding of what others feel about you. Usually they’re no better informed on the subject; and they care about it far less than you do. You have no way of knowing what this or that event really means. Whatever you tell yourself will be make-believe.

  4. Take no notice of your inner critic. Judging yourself is pointless. Judging others is half-witted. Whatever you achieve, someone else will always do better. However bad you are, others are worse. Since you can tell neither what’s best nor what’s worst, how can you place yourself correctly between them? Judging others is foolish since you cannot know all the facts, cannot create a reliable or objective scale, have no means of knowing whether your criteria match anyone else’s, and cannot have more than a limited and extremely partial view of the other person. Who cares about your opinion anyway?

  5. Give up on feeling guilty. Guilt changes nothing. It may make you feel you’re accepting responsibility, but it can’t produce anything new in your life. If you feel guilty about something you’ve done, either do something to put it right or accept you screwed up and try not to do so again. Then let it go. If you’re feeling guilty about what someone else did, see a psychiatrist. That’s insane.

  6. Stop being concerned what the rest of the world says about you. Nasty people can’t make you mad. Nice people can’t make you happy. Events or people are simply events or people. They can’t make you anything. You have to do that for yourself. Whatever emotions arise in you as a result of external events, they’re powerless until you pick them up and decide to act on them. Besides, most people are far too busy thinking about themselves (and worry what you are are thinking and saying about them) to be concerned about you.

  7. Stop keeping score. Numbers are just numbers. They don’t have mystical powers. Because something is expressed as a number, a ratio or any other numerical pattern doesn’t mean it’s true. Plenty of lovingly calculated business indicators are irrelevant, gibberish, nonsensical, or just plain wrong. If you don’t understand it, or it’s telling you something bizarre, ignore it. There’s nothing scientific about relying on false data. Nor anything useful about charting your life by numbers that were silly in the first place.

  8. Don’t be concerned that your life and career aren’t working out the way you planned. The closer you stick to any plan, the quicker you’ll go wrong. The world changes constantly. However carefully you analyzed the situation when you made the plan, if it’s more than a few days old, things will already be different. After a month, they’ll be very different. After a year, virtually nothing will be the same as it was when you started. Planning is only useful as a discipline to force people to think carefully about what they know and what they don’t. Once you start, throw the plan away and keep your eyes on reality.

  9. Don’t let others use you to avoid being responsible for their own decisions. To hold yourself responsible for someone else’s success and happiness demeans them and proves you’ve lost the plot. It’s their life. They have to live it. You can’t do it for them; nor can you stop them from messing it up if they’re determined to do so. The job of a supervisor is to help and supervise. Only control-freaks and some others with a less serious mental disability fail to understand this.

  10. Don’t worry about about your personality. You don’t really have one. Personality, like ego, is a concept invented by your mind. It doesn’t exist in the real world. Personality is a word for the general impression that you give through your words and actions. If your personality isn’t likeable today, don’t worry. You can always change it, so long as you allow yourself to do so. What fixes someone’s personality in one place is a determined effort on their part—usually through continually telling themselves they’re this or that kind of person and acting on what they say. If you don’t like the way you are, make yourself different. You’re the only person who’s standing in your way.

I just had to swipe this from somebody else’s blog & post it here. LOL numbers still have mystical significance, though, even if I hate mathematics to begin with & I hate keeping score, too. Oh, & numbers are very important things in terms of money. Pay attention to them in that perspective, STAT! Things are always easier said than done, but Tarot or a trusted confidante for that matter makes them less painful to deal with.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

sometimes the hardest person to trust is oneself

Where logic & analysis fail, intuition saves the day. I have to admit I’m still panic-stricken with self-doubt & -deprecation, so it’s always a vicious cycle for me to get reaaaaaally indecisive & make last-minute changes, because I can’t really deal with spontaneity sometimes. But everytime I’d pay careful attention to what my Inner Me has to let known right then & there, it’s always a big relief. There are moments I get upset when my hunches steer me clear of what I’ve originally planned ahead, but I know I should TRULY listen & feel them, & realize that this is all for my own benefit & well-being. The trouble lies when the lines blur between what my whims dictate & what my conscience advises.