So the 8 of Swords card may just simply mean 8 o' clock in the evening. :D
& the 5 of Cups can actually depict rain, especially amidst a hot summer week.
(More to follow, I'm officially stumped, no thanks to Merc-rx.)
7 hours ago
Friday, April 30, 2010
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
shadowboxing
I'm not really feeling well lately, even if it has been such a fun summer for me this year. Maybe I can blame Pluto going retrograde, with all the discussions I've had with querents this week about chakra balancing, shadow work, decluttering, psychic protection via feng shui, & plain ol' metamorphosis (though always easier said than done). How apt that this all had to be amplified during Lent up to Easter week, with "rebirth" as the main theme, as per the Judgment card, & with all my lovely Aries & Taurus clients celebrating their respective birthdays. (Belated joyeux anniversaire again to Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius, & Pisces!)
It's not fun at all dealing with Pluto retrograde, but it's a necessary evil. Mercury will go retrograde soon, too, this month, but I'm actually more positive about it now & I can't wait to have my room spic & span FINALLY. I can't wait to pamper myself all the more this season. To understand more about planetary retrogrades in a flash & being more patient with changes, among other things, click here.
Anyway, everytime I say "been there, done that", I'm not kidding at all. Even before my kid sister & father died, even before my long engagement ended, I've always been despondent. Inconsolably, at that. I've scribbled badly-written poetry in my youth to illustrate my depression, & here's one of them now, that I wrote in 11/01/01. Haha.
That was written months before I got fascinated with Tarot cards & just days before I got into my last relationship. It was part of an online writing exercise & I was really devoid of ideas back then. Surprisingly, though, I wrote another bit after a few days that I think was rather cute, & it's much easier to read. Maybe because I was actually inspired when I wrote it. It was untitled for some time.
For the love of God, every time I watch art, cooking, & interior decorating shows I find myself wishing I'd have the same kind of creativity that I had when I was 6-12 years old. I wrote haikus in high school to pay homage to Mother Nature, & I wrote poems & songs about meditation in college, but that was it. I give up. Oh, wait, maybe I shouldn't. But yes, please tell me if my attempts suck.
Anyway, I feel bad about having my Knight of Swords card from my Deviant Moon getting a bit soaked in water last night, as per precipitation from a cold drink on our table. My decks get "stamped" in one way or another, marking them as mine forever, but the incident still pains me. My prior querent & I were able to prevent a similar situation from happening, but I guess I got carried away during my last session. I still really have to thank my last young dreamy fellow Libra patron (& her heady gracious Aries older sister!) for being patient & confident of what I do (& also for reading this blog, thank you!) so that's fine. I actually want to thank all the new wonderful people I've met this year, & I wish you all the best. I'll always want to bless everyone, even if this movie quote keeps me in perspective:
"You can't right all the wrongs of this world by yourself."
Disney's The Hunchback of Notre Dame is indeed the most grim of all the films in the productions lineup, to date, but it's a perfect movie to watch during a Pluto retrograde, showcasing the dark realities of Life, & the need for upheavals. I still get a kick out of how funny the musical number "A Guy Like You" is (I like gargoyles, pang-asar + stand-up comedy, French references, & oh, look, cartomancy, there's the Ace of Hearts!) & my most favorite movie song would now have to be "God Help The Outcasts" (hooray for Mother Mary & the whole sacred feminine movement) even if it makes me cry everytime. I usually hate song-&-dance numbers in movies, thinking how cheesy they are, but I have a few things I wouldn't mind singing to, haha.
Back to the Knight of Swords & what it can illustrate at this point for all my querents, let me quote my most favorite author Christine Jette:
Oh, well. Feel free to join me in Facebook where I seem to have more time for lately, if you wish to know more about my schedules for this month. [EDITED]: But next week, I'll be reading on Tuesday (April 13th) from 2pm-7pm & Thursday (April 15th) from 4pm-9pm. Leave a comment here if you want a session. :) ♥
It's not fun at all dealing with Pluto retrograde, but it's a necessary evil. Mercury will go retrograde soon, too, this month, but I'm actually more positive about it now & I can't wait to have my room spic & span FINALLY. I can't wait to pamper myself all the more this season. To understand more about planetary retrogrades in a flash & being more patient with changes, among other things, click here.
Anyway, everytime I say "been there, done that", I'm not kidding at all. Even before my kid sister & father died, even before my long engagement ended, I've always been despondent. Inconsolably, at that. I've scribbled badly-written poetry in my youth to illustrate my depression, & here's one of them now, that I wrote in 11/01/01. Haha.
Within the silence of the cold, dark night
I can hear my heart beat
as well as the memories of my past cries
reverberate through my mind.
All I can do for this moment is to heave a sigh
And look up at the heavens for solace
But all I get is myself sitting up at the porch
with burning questions searing within my
weary soul
which I wouldn't be able to answer for, let's say,
maybe by 5 years or so...
I mourn for my hopelessness, loneliness, & failure
But at the same time bask in the gloomy moonlight
embracing my pain,
rejoicing with my shadow,
savoring the stale November air
recollecting on my thoughts
on Death.
That was written months before I got fascinated with Tarot cards & just days before I got into my last relationship. It was part of an online writing exercise & I was really devoid of ideas back then. Surprisingly, though, I wrote another bit after a few days that I think was rather cute, & it's much easier to read. Maybe because I was actually inspired when I wrote it. It was untitled for some time.
Somewhere here in the horizon
the rippling moonlit waters remind me
how lovely Life can be from a distance
at certain serene times
With the city lights aglow
below dainty stars and clouds
When the cool sea breeze blows kisses
on my weary, sleepy brow...
As I close my eyes and feel the bliss
brought upon by such contemplation
A certain warmth, stirred in with a mild chill,
surges through my self's inner depths
Up to my head
Then I look back at you, beaming —
I find myself wishing this moment would never have to end.
"Beside You"
11-04-2001
05:41 AM
For the love of God, every time I watch art, cooking, & interior decorating shows I find myself wishing I'd have the same kind of creativity that I had when I was 6-12 years old. I wrote haikus in high school to pay homage to Mother Nature, & I wrote poems & songs about meditation in college, but that was it. I give up. Oh, wait, maybe I shouldn't. But yes, please tell me if my attempts suck.
Anyway, I feel bad about having my Knight of Swords card from my Deviant Moon getting a bit soaked in water last night, as per precipitation from a cold drink on our table. My decks get "stamped" in one way or another, marking them as mine forever, but the incident still pains me. My prior querent & I were able to prevent a similar situation from happening, but I guess I got carried away during my last session. I still really have to thank my last young dreamy fellow Libra patron (& her heady gracious Aries older sister!) for being patient & confident of what I do (& also for reading this blog, thank you!) so that's fine. I actually want to thank all the new wonderful people I've met this year, & I wish you all the best. I'll always want to bless everyone, even if this movie quote keeps me in perspective:
Disney's The Hunchback of Notre Dame is indeed the most grim of all the films in the productions lineup, to date, but it's a perfect movie to watch during a Pluto retrograde, showcasing the dark realities of Life, & the need for upheavals. I still get a kick out of how funny the musical number "A Guy Like You" is (I like gargoyles, pang-asar + stand-up comedy, French references, & oh, look, cartomancy, there's the Ace of Hearts!) & my most favorite movie song would now have to be "God Help The Outcasts" (hooray for Mother Mary & the whole sacred feminine movement) even if it makes me cry everytime. I usually hate song-&-dance numbers in movies, thinking how cheesy they are, but I have a few things I wouldn't mind singing to, haha.
Back to the Knight of Swords & what it can illustrate at this point for all my querents, let me quote my most favorite author Christine Jette:
"The Knight indicates the need for a therapist/counselor who will focus on thinking patterns & beliefs that inhibit the healing process — stuck ways of thinking that are holding you back.
If you are into a life of busyness, this card means you need to slow down & examine what you are avoiding by keeping so busy. Focus on control of your own treatment decisions. Use your research skills to arrive at a solution that is right for you. Meditation will help you focus your thoughts, so you can listen to your heart & not your head."
Oh, well. Feel free to join me in Facebook where I seem to have more time for lately, if you wish to know more about my schedules for this month. [EDITED]: But next week, I'll be reading on Tuesday (April 13th) from 2pm-7pm & Thursday (April 15th) from 4pm-9pm. Leave a comment here if you want a session. :) ♥
Saturday, March 13, 2010
aspiring wedding belle?
So I'm going to be part of this bridal fair this weekend, much thanks to Wedding Belle Magazine, & I can't wait. I'll be reading cards there for mostly brides-to-be, then copies of the magazine are up for grabs, & let's hope they won't get freaked out or anything. I'm bringing all my girly decks, & thinking happy thoughts, even if I'm half-expecting to be brain-dead at the end of the day. Readings should be quick, like 5-10 minutes roughly, & more thorough + in-depth readings can be scheduled privately at some other time, like a week after. I'm hoping to have fun, considering how ironic it is for an ex-fiancee (whose Saturn Return in Virgo in her 7th House & Aquarius Rising in her 1st House kinda prevented her from getting married more than 2 years ago, as she dreaded becoming Bridezilla that time, & who got officially engaged while Venus was retrograde in Gemini WTF LOL) to get excited about weddings again. I actually have cooler ideas now on what my pre-nup photos will be like (rockstar-ish as per my Libra Sun + Scorpio Venus LOL), what my actual wedding gown will be (inspired by Elie Saab's S/S 09 collection), what my wedding favors will be (Earth-friendly & practical!) & what my save-the-dates will be (Ouija board-inspired!), for starters! Now I can't wait to taste cakes, or ogle at pretty flower arrangements & superb wedding photos & whatnot! This should be fun! I want to invite Love back into my life! (Uhm, WTH.)
Cards that I can expect to turn up the most in my readings by then would be:
Judgment - The whole announcement alone would be so much to talk about, complete with press releases & pictures, plus hello, new phase in life.
The Sun - Beach weddings, procreation, pina coladas, the whole shebang.
The World - Overseas or out-of-town weddings & honeymoons, interracial marriages, plus focus on the bride's dress & makeup & entourage.
Temperance - The whole ceremony itself, & life after the party. (READ: Reality!)
The Chariot - The bridal limo, plane tickets, the bridal gown even, & please, for the love of God, no DUI.
The Hierophant - Church weddings, spiritual retreats, gratitude for blessings, observing traditions, religion issues.
The Empress - The bride, who else, then maybe her mother & future mother-in-law. The maid of honor can be considered, too.
The Emperor - The groom, then maybe even his father & future father-in-law, plus best man.
The Magician - The search for the perfect wedding coordinator begins, or the newlyweds-to-be weaving their own creativity.
The Fool - Ooh, finally saying, "I do" or even eloping, HAHA, or getting married in offbeat scenarios, like skydiving or... well, you get the idea.
The Star is all about the bride, too, & the Devil would be them crazy bridal showers or stag parties or... you do the math, sigh. Strength would be all about grace under pressure, or even cold feet; while Justice could be all about prenups, annulment or divorce issues before subjecting oneself to a new lovelife, or even arranged marriages.
Other cards I'm personally excited about because they really talk about engagements & weddings would be the 4 of Wands (garden weddings, presents, summer weddings), 9 of Cups (yay, the Wish Card is always fun to get, especially with an open bar & chocolate fondue station!), 3 of Cups (toasts & free-flowing booze!), 2 of Cups (yay, vows!), 10 of Cups (family planning & Christmas), 10 of Pentacles (love that will span generations & yay gracious gifts), Ace of Cups (wedding ceremonies, pregnancies, bridal glory), & uhm, the Ace of Wands (haha, cf. The Devil).
Oh, I need to claim my red smartphone from my usual Nokia Care Center by Sunday, & get my Dzi bead bracelet fixed, so Heaven help me. I lack sleep, despite Mars has gone finally direct again in Leo. Our DSL connection has gone bonkers, & we were just about to give up & throw away our wireless router & switch to a different ISP, but voila, I'm back. Please bear with me while I try to catch up with the overdue email requests & blog posts. But I should be done by Monday at the most, so yay. I sorely missed you all.
Anyway, I'd like to thank all my newfound clients & repeat patrons for all their referrals. Not to mention all the awesome feedback I've been getting from them, on how amazingly right on the dot my readings have been lately. Yay. More about that in a bit. For now, enjoy the weekend! ♥
