when did my heart go missing?

That is just so awesome. Now, how to figure out to fix the subtly annoying page errors & post the Seven Prime Things I Have To List Down to illustrate my own examples to my clients. Writing is therapeutic, yes, & self-knowledge can be madly fun, but for some reason I can’t even find my scribbled top lists to begin with.

Anyway, let me post this as a reminder that I should take care of myself while working. My new reading schedule at this point would be every Tuesday & Saturday (the earlier the better, starting at 9am). Let me know. Please stand by for inevitable sudden changes, however.

anniversaire blues

I’m sorry I haven’t been posting so far. I’ve been just busy with work & my overall Life, & believe me, just when I thought I was already able to adjust with my schedule, I then have to live with shiftings & get my comfort zone shaken. But I’m alright. Even if my birthday wasn’t really happy to begin with – no thanks to this season’s Mercury retrograde — I’m glad to be back. So I have readings to do later after work, courtesy of my old blogging friend, & I hope everything goes well. I’ve also asked a coworker to read for me when I get back from my rest day. Somehow I can’t wait for my vacation leaves this weekend to clear my head & get away from the world, but I dread the outcome as well. I should post a reading for myself before the trip, but first, let me say that I got a new copy of my Mythic Tarot last month to give my old deck a break, & I also got a new feng shui kit, but I haven’t got around to making major arrangements on my bedroom yet, save for the new sheets I got on sale. :/

It’ll be my first blogging anniversary this weekend. I should come up with specials for referrals but all I have at the moment to offer is free readings for every nice enough referee. So that being said, my blogging friend gets one on me just in time for her birthday next month. :D WTG, Lorna!

Let me also note how I find it interesting that most of our clientele in my day job are born in September & are coincidentally Virgos. Librans get approved for their applications, too, a lot, but not as much as Virgos do. It doesn’t matter what their genders or their ages are, but their Sun sign prevails. I also can’t help but ponder on how I tend to enjoy readings the most for strong-willed young women. It’s even funny how our lives are so parallel even if we all come from different backgrounds. I’d understand if friends who go together to see me for a consultation are on the same wavelength, so to speak, but feeling euphoric after meeting a complete stranger & realizing we’re in the same boat somehow is always a treat. There’s no difference whether or not they’re born under Fire or Earth or Water or fellow Air — I like it how things are more often than not surreal. Don’t I just love synchronicity.

Let me leave you with this wonderful insight I derived from a self-help book written by Julia Cameron before I babble some more: “Blocked artists aren’t lazy. They’re just blocked.” God, I feel more than that. Like, suicidal.

on yin & yang

I’m sick again & I hate it. I can barely concentrate but I might as well make an update here. So far, I’ve lost one potential client because of the weather, but I had my best friend pay me for a reading this week & I’ll be meeting a new one next week. As usual, proceeds will go to maintaining my departed youngest sister’s stead & Catholic Mass offerings, but I’m really happy how things are turning out. Now all I have to do is get my voice back & be strong enough to conduct sessions & resume my usual credit verification duties.

There are a few cards I want to discuss today. These cards usually are alarming once they’re drawn, but looking at them more closely gives a whole new perspective.

First off, the Three of Swords. In order to come to a conclusion with one’s misery, one must bridge the gap between one’s thoughts & feelings. The head & the heart may say different things, but if one can reach a compromise between opposing stances, then enlightenment will arise. How Zen.

Then the Seven of Wands, as aptly put by Kat Black of the Golden Tarot, reminds us to take a stand in order for us to rise above our struggles, to never give up, as long as we know we’re in the right of way.

As for the Devil, it can be a sign that you are gaining control, or at least awareness, of your weaknesses or addictions. Time to step up & fully overcome all that.

Lastly, the Moon can only mean one thing: that the Seeker should have more sleep to regain energy & calm his agitated mind. In conjunction with the card’s traditional meaning, dreams have an important message & we should pay close attention to whatever we remember.

There’s something scary about the Nine of Coins that I perceived last month, but for the life of me, I can’t remember now. Seeing her cloaked in black & gold is charming & disturbing at the same time.



I wonder where this sense of dread is coming from.

Anyway, the yearly book fair that I’m always excited about is just around the corner, & I can’t wait to check out the goods at discount prices available. Will I get a new deck this time? I sure hope so!