a day in the life of this New Age Grrl begins

Today is the last week (& Tuesday) of the first month of the New Year, & we're smack-dab in the middle of a Mercury retrograde (transiting my Ascendant, no less) & a Jupiter retrograde (no wonder my Jupiter return doesn't feel so breezy). But I'm going to be updating, nevertheless, so hello again, everybody. The Moon is in Taurus again now, which I love, so that makes me productive & relaxed at the same time, just before I get more emo & domesticated before it slips into Gemini then finally into my Lunar sign Cancer. I'll be dealing with a lot of home-related matters this weekend until before the first weekend of next month, which means I won't be available for face-to-face sessions until February 7th, 3pm-8pm (for select clients only).

A lot of things has truly changed with me. Today actually marks the last day of my Basic DNA2 class 2 years ago, when I have discovered ThetaHealing®, & I'm still making use of it in my life. It isn't easy changing so rapidly, & I had to employ other methods to help stabilize me: Reiki, Bowen therapy, flower essences (both Bach & FlorAlive), & Millennium Method™ (which I've managed to complete in less than a year last year, & it was a most costly but important personal journey... no regrets). Right now, I only swear by ThetaHealing®, Sacred Activations (founded by a ThetaHealing® Certificate of Science holder), Millennium Method™, flower essences, & Reiki. I only practise ThetaHealing® & Millennium Method™ for now, along with my Tarot readings, & I'm happy with the results these have given me & my clients. Especially my clients. Like my Client of the Year for 2014 just got engaged on NYE, & I have a budding teenage ThetaHealer® client who's sworn to help heal her family & friends drastically, while at the same time who's meant to really be in the limelight as a young beauty queen + global ambassador. I'm so proud. I love breakthroughs.

I'm happy for all my clients who've shifted in one way or another — manifesting a better car than what they've expected, gained more money, landed a better job, traveled when they hardly believed they actually could (& so much more), snagged bigger commissions, gained more confidence for school/work, glowed in better health (especially after reporting to be sleeping so much more soundly), acquired more energy to do the things they love, & finally becoming more in touch with their spirituality (one my best news in my book). Little miracles in the physical health department happened, too, especially remotely — like my client who healed from chickenpox; then another client who healed from some weird inexplicable water retention which targeted her joints, but after my working on her, it was gone the next day, much to her doctors' surprise; then another finally off his braces & PTSD & the rest of his pubescent problems; & a client who got physically 'assaulted' but she recovered IMMEDIATELY after one session; & even my brother who fell off while skating, whose pain (thankfully, only that, nothing else) went away quickly (but as a doting older sister, I had to follow it up with some organic cooling leg & foot gel). 

I already knew I had to be a healer in one way or another (actually, dreaded) when I had to monitor his eventual heart (after looking through his chakras) while he was being rushed from one hospital to another for poisoning a few years back, on our Mars return, just after our birthday month. (He's a Virgo, though, Pisces Rising — while you all should know I'm a Libra, Aquarius Rising.) I thank the Creator that he's okay, but we still have a long way to go. 

Actually, I really was having a huge issue about other clients calling me a "healer" because I had a friend-turned-client-turned-colleague who asked me about her own healer journey, & I'm honored to be part of that, as she healed me, too, at first with Reiki. I mean, my point was, ME? Seriously? But here we are. I did obsess about health even if I was only 6 years old with all the medical books lying around the house & my more-frequent-than-normal trips to the infirmary & all the vaccinations I got subjected to (& I still fucking hate syringes!) I do have medical practitioners in my (estranged) family (e.g., an actual oncologist, a pharmacist, a bunch of nurses). & I still have posts lying around here about my Saturn return in finicky, obsessive Virgo describing how I juggled to get balanced in that department. & I did handle so many crazy health readings via Tarot alone. I even would catch myself telling my doctor or nurse clients mid-reading that, "Wait, I'm not a doctor, so I shouldn't be telling you (insert either a diagnosis or a suggested prescription here), but you can see that this particular case makes sense, yes?" WTH, right? Again, alternative healing methods are just complementary to what we have per traditional medicine. & you should still consult your doctor(s) to track your progress.

I only get Reiki & Sacred Activations from other practitioners. You can ask me about them in private. Actually, I'm posting more now here to be able to feature them soon. But for now I'm learning to hone my present Tools to use on myself, & I'm happy to grow more trust in the Source-Of-All-That-Is as I do it. I fully acknowledge that I can't do it alone, but that doesn't mean I'm going to be lax & let others do all the work (unless it's clearing my space via a housekeeper or a professional organizer, whoops). Healing is a lovely process, & it's a dynamic two-way street. At least now I'm safe to let go, after much discernment.

I still want to be able to talk more about my personal life as I update more here, as part of my healing journey. You'll read more about my silly whims, & more of the reasons why I need to undergo healing myself. Right now I'm just too happy to be more Awakened & Integrated. Perfect timing, astrologically-speaking, honestly, & I can't wait to live my life the way I really want it to, while inspiring more young people (inadvertently, more like, haha) to do the same.

To summarize what else I do aside from give Tarot readings (with my usual astrology & feng shui advice), for your reference:

-ThetaHealing®
a) World Relations (May 2014)
b) Family Ties (Jan 2014)
c) Soul Mate (Dec 2013 - reviewed in Nov 2014)
d) Game of Life (Jul 2013)
e) Plant Communication (LOL) - (Mar 2014) 
f) RHYTHM (Mar 2013)
g) Intuitive Anatomy (Apr 2013)

**UPDATE!**
h) Basic DNA2 Instructors (Feb 2015) - Herzliya, Israel
i) Advanced DNA2 Instructors (Feb 2015) - Herzliya, Israel
j) Manifesting & Abundance Instructors (May 2015) - Tokyo, Japan
k) Dig Deeper Practitioners (Apr 2015) - Tokyo, Japan
l) Dig Deeper Instructors (Apr 2015) - Tokyo, Japan
m) Think What You Think (Apr 2015) - Tokyo, Japan
n) DNA3 (Nov 2015) - BGC, Philippines

-Crystal Layout Past-Life Regression
a) Basic - Remote Viewing (Sep 2013)
b) Advanced - Soul Travel (Dec 2013) 

-Millennium Method™
a) Relationships module (Mar 2014)
b) Kids module (Mar 2014)
c) Biotoxins (Mar 2014)
d) Empowerment (May 2014) - Wan Chai, Hong Kong 
e) Medical Intuitive (May 2014)
f) Module 1 - Physical (Oct 2014)
g) Module 2 - Esoteric (Oct 2014)
h) Module 3 - Psychoemotional (Oct 2014)
i) Module 4 - Mastery (Oct 2014)


To celebrate, I will be giving specials to people who've stumbled upon this blog via this list that people I keep mentioning about, also to those who've Liked my Facebook page, & you get more specials if you become a regular, especially when you become my next Client of The Year. 2015 is a pivotal time, why not take advantage of it? :D (My silly declaration / TY gift is valid only until February 9, 2015, 9pm, GMT+8; which should be my parents' would've-been-42nd anniversary, btw.)

I would love to talk about each & every class I took in detail, but I'll take it easy on you today. For now, what I can say is, my most favorite class would be World Relations, because that just blew me away...  

& to end this post, for now, here's what my most stubborn client in the last 2-something years has just told me, "I'm able to trust myself more now, thanks to you."

I *am* floored. I'm happy to be able to trust myself more now, too. ♥ ♥ ♥ 

#adayinthelifeofthisNewAgeGrrl 

(updated on May 21, 2015; 3:06 AM, GMT +8)

Venus conjunct Saturn, Mars conjunct Pluto

Hello again. I'm back. It's the first day of the last month of the year & I want to make it count, even if I've been busy meeting new people & recovering from fatigue + stress since my last post. It's also my Venus return again, & this has yet to be the best one yet. I fell in love once more & I've never felt more alive deep down, despite feeling quite dead before & during my period. Now that my time of the month is over, I'm still having trouble bouncing back, & I keep forgetting I have sleeping pills at my disposal, but I'm glad I've been able to bond with my brother again after a long month of hardly nothing, except for some fleeting TV moments, while watching my favorite Adventure Time series & this special on Hitler on NatGeo.

I'm also getting a new Tarot deck that has been haunting me for 2 years now, also around the time of my Venus return. I'm actually very happy that I'm getting it from a loving, wise source, considering how dark the deck is, to begin with, especially when I encountered it for the first time, but it gave me such an insightful reading about myself & my future as a New Age grrl. I was supposed to have it earlier last month, but with Mercury going bonkers, I waited patiently for things to simmer down. I'm excited to get a hold of it this month. I'll let you all know what it is. My very first card from it was the 8 of Wands, & it felt wonderful seeing how that depiction was, describing my growth. I also got the Queen of Wands, who looked more like a flower child/hippie singing folk songs probably. You all know I listen to much heavier stuff at the end of the day. & then I got the 5 of Cups, reversed. My life has never been the same ever since. Then after another encounter with the same deck, this time from a different owner, I knew it was meant to be mine, too. I was described as a gorgeous Hierophant who looks more like the High Priestess, & can I just say that the Empress card looks exactly like my inner Venus (in Scorpio), only tamer & more foreboding?

Ever since the last Full Moon in Gemini, which felt more like a dark moon than anything, I've been keeping close to home, more to myself. I miss my new party friends, whom I can just hang out with openly, without being bombarded by astrology, Tarot, or dream interpretation questions, enjoying music & drinks & good food. But I'll be back. & I know I have to see my regular clients before Christmas. I'll try to schedule things for next week. The last Mercury retrograde was actually bad. I had to call off all my appointments & now for the life of me, I can't remember where I actually placed my fucking house keys. & my room's still a glorious mess. & my hair needs urgent TLC. But I'm fine. & I'm still mothering a happy smart female puppy. I have groceries to pick up in a bit, now that I'm temporarily the matriarch of my household. Ugh. I miss the beach sooo bad. But I need to take care of my home just a bit longer, so please bear with me.

Speaking of home, I'm being forced to look after my body all the more now, too. I scored a lot of pretty thingamajigs when Venus was in my sign Libra, but now that Venus is in Scorpio, I'm now on a desperate pricey move to make sure my skin clears (must end this whole blotched-face drama!) & my hair recovers. I'm exploring this whole big mall much closer to home & I daresay I'm enjoying a lot of great finds there, & I'm quite happy. I've even had my toenails repainted red, the only color (aside from black) that looks good on me & makes my feet look clean. People associate red negatively with something else, but I won't care anymore. Deal with it. It feels great to fall in love with myself & with Life all over again. October has been horrible, even early last month, when things were shaken here, no thanks to Saturn in Scorpio, but the last Venus-Saturn conjunct did prove to be magical (& sexy!) for me. I hope by the time my Venus return ends, I'll be really more of who & what I am supposed to be. I just want to lose all the weight I've gained in the last couple of years, but I'll just wait until tomorrow to get started all over again. I want more energy.

I hope all is well with you. If you have any questions about my future Tarot reading schedules within the Makati CBD, please email me at sp.lovecraft[at]gmail[dot]com anyway, so we can have things sorted out. I'd love to hear from you!

Mercury schmercury

As usual, I've been gone for so long. I'm so sorry. I've been a very sick girl since The Collective Art Fair & I'm still getting my moxie back. I look like shit, I feel like shit. I've treated a few random people like shit, too, unfortunately, just this month. Not even this pricey staycation at a tucked-away chi-chi place in my most favorite city & a getaway to the 2nd best beach destination in the world (my 2nd trip, too, for this year, alone at that!) helped make me feel better. I spent so much on doctor's fees, antihistamines, heavy-duty multivitamins, band-aids (yes, I injured my right thumb while jetskiing, WTF, after my hands went numb from parasailing solo), premier transport services, O2 (that's oxygen for you), cough remedies (Solmux & Sinecod & Strepsils) & ooh, high-grade honey products for this month alone & it's disheartening. Add to that my damaged hair woes, my blotched face (no thanks to allergies & my drat period), & deepening frown/scowl lines from all these complaint letters I had to write this month. Despite my best efforts to stay healthy & sane. I hate this month. What a rip-off. But I'm still happy for them little highlights I've enjoyed. & I have fellow Air signs as loyal clients lately. I'll throw you ladies a surprise, don't worry. But I'm glad my readings are spot-on for them. I just hope it would be like that for the rest of my clientele.

I still have a couple of lengthy emailed readings to send out later today, & I have so many other things to review here, like finally, my own Revelations Tarot deck (YOWZA! THE UNIVERSE LOVES ME!), my new massage oil, my local Ayurveda experience, & this awesome Heal & Energize Your Life talk at my new favorite haunt Corner Tree Cafe that I attended just last week. I've talked to Ms. Rosan Cruz about having a chakra healing seminar, & I'm hoping my friends/students can go before Ms. Moni Platt leaves the country next month. Should be slated around April 5, Maundy Thursday, 9pm-6pm, within Makati. If fellow budding healers/energy workers are interested, please leave a comment here so we can discuss this. The seminar should be limited to 20 people max. I'm hoping I can bring at least 4-6 more people in. I've learned so much during the 2-hour-talk, & it was a wonderful, serendipitous experience. I'm worried it might not push through, but I got the Healing card from my Osho Zen deck (cf. King of Cups) for it, so yeah, I do pray it happens. We really could use it. I've been meaning to study Reiki ever since 2007, for starters, & about time I'd be ready for it.

I'm also trying to tidy up my space. I've figured I'll just stay at home today & finish everything I need to work on. (That's exactly what this Mercury retrograde energy is for, yeah? But if only Mercury didn't have to be in Pisces. I was already revved up when there was a Sun-Mercury Rx conjunct in Aries, only to be stuck like Velcro again, argh.) It was the most quiet Gemini Moon night, btw, I've ever had last night. But the awesome star-studded must-watch feel-good Muppets movie made up for it. Quite fitting to watch during a Mercury in Pisces in retrograde season, eh? "For them lovers, dreamers, & Me." Heh. & I'm beginning to appreciate song-&-dance numbers in movies (especially this fantastic brief [500] Days of Summer moment with Hall & Oates in the background, haha). & by checking my online movie transaction logs, I haven't been to my favorite cinema since August last year! :( So I guess I deserve a break.

& a break I shall continue to have within the year, especially after stumbling upon this article on my News Feed earlier today. HOLY SHIT, THE STORY OF MY LIFE RIGHT HERE!

"Your life is precarious. When you were in high school and college, you treated your mortality like it was a crappy purse. You stomped on it, broke a strap, let a vodka bottle spill out and ruin the leather. You did all of this believing it would all be repaired while you were sleeping, and it usually was. You reach a point, however, when the leather stays torn, when the piece of crap bag becomes beaten beyond repair. Simply put, you have to take a more proactive role in maintaining your happiness and well-being. You’re not just someone watching their own life from afar. You’re in it now. And if you don’t take care of it, it will fall to pieces."

"There’s a certain kind of beauty with being reckless with your body and mind. Closing the chapter on that and actively becoming the person you’re going to be feels great but it’s also a tad bittersweet."

"Sometimes you want to go back to being the person you were before all the bad stuff happened, but you know that’s impossible. So you just bid adieu to that time and look towards your future. (FYI, it looks super bright!)"

& that, ladies & gentlemen, is how I got into Tarot in the 1st place, about 10 years ago. I'm still flailing around. Anyway, I can never thank my friends & eventually family for helping me bounce back from my self-destructive heydays. I'll really just do my best to stay out of trouble from now on, even if my impatience & impetuousness are getting the best of me again. (I promise not to talk to strangers today, lest I'd lash out at them unsuspectingly, under a crazy Sun-Pluto square, on my Lunar return.) I can't believe I'm this old na, even if I still keep getting mistaken for a 25/27- year-old brat. I miss my youth, but I'm just so glad I'm at this stage in my life where I'm really beginning to enjoy my existence as I now know my purpose more here. I just don't want to be too serious yet like how I've been ever since, & I've been contemplating on childlessness like hell earlier. I mean, if you've been reading this blog since day one, or if you know me in person, you should know by now I don't want kids EVER. (OK, maybe just one, if I do get married, haha, whateverrr, but I'll be 40 in a few years & I'm still not taking care of myself as much as I'm supposed to? So how's that gonna happen? No, I don't want to read my cards about it.)

(& no thanks to that article as well as this season, I've been thinking again about how I've made my ex-fiance suffer so much when all he wanted primarily was to be just some "gas filler" (& I'd be Lightning McQueen, LOL) even if he did promise to laze around a beach in possibly Corsica with me, among other things, if we do manage to grow old together. Today is his 30th birthday, actually, & I can only wish him the best from afar this way. [Yes, I'm quite older than him, but quite as immature.] I still love him for being so kind to me during our time together, but maybe being apart like this is much better for the both of us in the long run. I'm still hoping he's already forgiven me, even if it's all I've ever asked the heavens after our disdainful breakup.)

Anyway, my scatterbrained self is going off-tangent again. But lemme share with you how last night's coincidental Twitter discussion was about The Empress card. I've befriended a young artist who's getting to learn how to read Tarot & when I RT'd The Tarot Lady's draw of the Empress reversed, she mentioned she got her, too. So I asked her what does She represent to you now? So she gave me the usual meaning for it, while I said, literally, it could mean me taking myself out on a date (again), honoring myself, having a Me Party, & Miss Piggy declaring herself irreplaceable. HAHA. No, seriously. Tarot's much more fun to learn when you begin to realize how literal they can be (& that's how you get crazy accurate readings sometimes). #tarottips

I'll probably hold another Tarot-reading workshop in May. I can't wait to surf + skimboard (this was actually fun this month, haha) next month & then laze around a much quieter beach weeks after. I believe in signs all the more now, & I know I'll be back by the sea once I'm done. But first, must declutter, must email, must revamp this blog layout (watch out for a really girly display, haha), & must realign everything else. I've wasted too much time already on a wrong platform so I'm working my way back here. :)

come on, let's die until we live — part #445979

I wish I wasn't so tired from last week, but I am. I'm fine, nevertheless. But I'm feeling more & more irritable lately. Could be PMS again, or the Mercury retrograde unleashing its wrath before it finally ends this weekend. Despite a wonderful breakfast & a nice cold bath with great-smelling stuff this morning, I cried myself to sleep again. (Well, long story. It wasn't just something I did out of the blue. It's just too heart-wrenching to talk about in detail at this time.) Not even making a quick trip to our usual fantastic weekend market yesterday to have lunch with my Breakfast Club helped. I really need a break, & I can't wait for the next weekend.

(Anyway, I had shepherd's pie there in lieu of my staple lasagna, Chinese shrimp dumplings, & my favorite Wagyu beef shawarma, then washed it all down with cold Coke Zero. YUM! I was so full that I didn't eat until this morning, & I think I dozed off just before 9pm last night, hehe, yikes. Gott Sie Dank! It was also fun catching the cool resident saxophonist there, who played the Super Mario Brothers theme just before we left, whee! That so cracked me up.)

I'm also happy for the new sheer blue-&-gold starry pouch I got for my Mystic Faerie Tarot deck from my cute Breakfast Club cohort / mommy-figure Joy. :D The original orange organza pouch that came with the set was ripped & I keep forgetting to have it sewn back into place. I'm bad with needlework, as you may know. I'm a disgrace to the female species like that, hehe. I keep forgetting to pick up a nice pouch or two at this novelty store in the mall closest to our office. I forgot I left it in my locker at work along with my old Sacred Rose deck, & so while I was rearranging my cards in the pantry, & my friends had to pick me up to have our perpetual after-shift meal, she handed it to me, & she'll fix my other pouch when she gets the chance to do so, yay. Pardon the blurry shot yet again.



Remember how I wanted the Manga Tarot by Selena Lin & the Tarot of the Magical Forest for my birthday last year? That was also included in my wish list back then. Just when I thought it'd be impossible to score one for myself, my esoteric pal Francisbear was nice enough to tip me where to find one, & it was magically close to work even! I got it reserved, but the first deck I got had the Ace to the Eight of Pentacles missing (gadzooks!) & I demanded for a replacement. Good thing the bookstore was prompt with the response, & so on my actual birthday I went back & got my final set. :D

The Mystic Faerie Tarot deck is so light-hearted & easy on the eyes, & it's my other most popular deck, next to my Golden Tarot by Kat Black. The latter, however, is a more morose choice, but people seem to like it because of its golden edges & classic appeal. The former is good to use around teenagers (my youngest querent ever was 7 years old, though!) & girls/women in my age bracket. The last card I got from it earlier before putting it back in order was the Knight of Cups, which was surprisingly what the last card as well in the Sacred Rose deck. Too bad I can't find images of that anywhere, but oh, look, there's a 2009 Calendar for the deck from the illustrator. The Knights in the deck are female, btw, as are the Knaves. I like the Knight of Swords best, who looks prettiest, methinks, but the Knight of Cups was a welcome sight to behold just the same, if we were to consider its divinatory meaning.



Lo, & behold, the proverbial knight in shining armor, all dreamy, hopefully with love.
Taken from the Sacred Rose Tarot deck.

I hope it also means I could have a chance to visit Spain one day, haha, especially with this blurb I got in my e-mail. Madrid, here I come! Seriously, it's one of the least thought-of destinations I have in my list, as I'd rather bask in Iceland for the full exotic experience, but I can't help it. I wonder if I'll ever get to travel with a lover there, HAHA, or meet someone who could eventually sweep me off my feet when I least expect it again. Not that I really care. I still find romance & dating cheesy, even if what I feel now is like what Kristin Scott Thomas said in Four Weddings & A Funeral,

"Well, the truth is, I have met the right person, and he's not in love with me,
and until I stop loving him, no one else really has a chance."

Sigh. That's one quote from that movie that will forever be etched upon memory.

Maybe I should just really get more sleep to prepare for the whole new week ahead. I love what Tarot.com has to say about what's in store for me this season:

In your 9th House of Expansion, the Sun stirs up your desire to step outside your comfort zone and explore new territory. Unplug from the busyness of daily life to travel, meditate, and get a higher perspective on ordinary reality. The Super-Conjunction helps you identify what you need to release to free up more space for fun, romance and creative pursuits. Take the risk of making your happiness a top priority.

So dead-on, I tell you. I'm revisiting yoga & food trips like what I keep babbling in my older posts. I'm also focusing on my Warbook mage (Level 46 FTW!) especially with all these other empires to pillage, hehe. I'll just make do further with what I have & try not to kill myself during off-peak hours. My horoscope was so accurate, too, for yesterday:

Saturday, May 23rd, 2009 -- You may be tired of always being the one who's nice to others while they don't even notice much of what you do. This is tricky ground, for part of your graciousness comes from the fact that it really makes you feel good. If you're doing things for social approval, however, then your frustration can grow when you're not being appreciated. Instead of harboring any resentment today, just retreat a bit until you are in better spirits.

Yeah, I'm taking a long break, lest I'd snap again & totally lose it. Which brings me to my actual topic in mind, but I guess that will have to wait until tomorrow.

For now, let me just note how this is an interesting take on clutter:

The location of clutter in an environment, reveals the content of a person's inner struggle. The absence of disorder empowers us. As we are connected by energy to everything in our environment...you might want to review the following and check to see where you may be struggling in your life:

Entrance door = Fear of relationships
Inside closets = Unwilling to examine emotions
In Kitchen = Resenting/overwhelmed by caretaking
Next to Bed = Desire for change or escape
On Desk = Frustration, fear of letting go, or need to control
In a corner or behind a door = Detachment from others
Under a piece of furniture = Importance of appearances
In a cellar = Procrastination
In an attic = Living in the past
In a garage = Inability to actualize
All over = Lack of self-love or anger and self-loathing

Oh, heavens, no. :))