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Everything seems to be working against my favor again. My .com's wonky, my smartphone's unable to send text messages all of a sudden, & some of my appointments this month have been delayed. Maybe I'll just wait until the Moon's back in Libra before actually posting. For now, I'm happy that my blog's finally 3 years old, & I've been meeting a lot of people, & I'm learning so much more than ever. Please bear with me, though. Thank you all so much.

on the vicious binge-&-purge cycle

Moon in Aries
Oct 2, 2009 to Oct 5, 2009

The weatherman may say rain, but expect some Sun to shoot through the clouds. Aries Moon draws fire into the atmosphere, stimulating life force and vitality. You're alive, filled with your own thoughts, centered into the vision before your own two eyes. It's all about you today. Trouble is, everyone else is in the same place. Imagine a playing field with plenty of loose cannons. That's Aries Moon. Insensitive remarks can land at missile speed and detonate into conflicts. The good news is they'll end just as quickly. This Moon goes against teamwork, but it's auspicious for personal challenges. Compete against your own limits. What's that mountain you've been wanting to climb? Be daring. Headaches, eyestrain or sinus difficulty imply troubling feelings have collected inside your head. Meet whatever you've been avoiding head-on.

This feels like a fabulous phase, especially when it's time for the Blood Moon to shine, but surprisingly, all I want to do is catch up on sleep, declutter some more, get a massage, & detach myself from the rest of the world for the time being. & no wonder, another wonderful new esoteric pal from Twitter shared this Full Moon ritual to help heal by purging everything outdated & negative. I didn't think the full moon's also a good time to do New Moon activities, but maybe I've been getting it wrong all along. Anyway, it's also a good time to for Thanksgiving, & personally, I have a lot to be grateful about from the Universe, even if I really didn't get to celebrate my birthday last September 25th the way I wanted to, no thanks to the tropical storm Ondoy (aka Ketsana) that drained everybody like hell that fateful Saturday after my birthday. I'm actually donating as much as I can, & I'm urging others to do the same. But I'm not going to talk about this anymore here. Well, hmm, maybe at a later date, but not now. I've prayed so hard & lit so many white candles like crazy, & I'd rather not talk about how painstaking it all was just yet. But who would've thought that the Star card (see previous post) & the 7 of Cups card from my birthday reading to myself would be so literal, with all the rain & deluge & chaos & confusion that weekend? :(

Nevertheless, there's my award for Most Valuable Peon (LOL) for Quality Assurance during the last quarter in my dayjob, plus my stats there are improving, & I got my 6th commendation for the year, for starters. Then my boss, of course, granted me my long birthday leave. Yay. ♥

I also was given a second shot at life on my birthday, to think I was thinking I wouldn't care if I'd go out alone & end up dead anyway last week. But good thing I wasn't in the mood to really get drenched & stranded, so I had to stay at home. Even if a bit of murky, yucky water got inside & we were all panicking at some point (me, my brother, the old household help), I can only be relieved that we were spared. My brother was also nice enough not to subject me to the dreary, horrible mess of evacuating upstairs most of the stuff we had on the living room, dining room, & kitchen as well as the muddy residue the flash flood left when the waters subsided. He also got me a huge box of chocolate sans rival, haha, which worked out wonderfully for the both of us because he's such a sucker for everything sans rival & I'd kill for chocolatey everything. So, yeah. We gorged on our favorite local hazelnut ice cream, too.

& I got a lot of things for myself (albeit trivial for most people) despite my situation. Like cheap yummy-smelling body scrub (green tea + lemon + peppermint + caraway). More white candles & blueberry-scented incense sticks. New feng shui charm bracelets from a Taurus-Scorpio couple selling them at the SM Southmall Divipark at the 3rd floor (& I hope you guys aren't ripping me off, LOL, thanks!) More feng shui awareness resources. More massages. Plus even this little blue dress that I can jazz up in more ways than one, but I wish I'd fit more nicely into this & all them other dresses I've been acquiring this year. Oh, well.

But in all honesty, I hate getting & keeping useless stuff in my turf as much as possible. I give consumable gifts & memories, but I like plushies & silly letters, too, at some point. I don't want to be giving away things that will eventually be thrown away. & I hate people who don't know how to appreciate whatever it is I give them wholeheartedly, or who can't take the hint that I wouldn't want another lousy dust-collecting figurine (unless it's a Japanese doll I'd like, or samurai chess pieces, haha), picture frame (because I don't frame pictures at all), mug (but I still collect colorful Starbucks mugs LOL), or pens (unless it's a Uni Pin .08 drawing pen, or a huge box of 12 of it), or makeup (I still have huge Estee Lauder palettes from my mom, & I dunno what to do with these!), among other things. So this nice video that Tangerine shared with me from Facebook actually makes so much sense. Hooray for less is more. Yay, Zen. Double yay, feng shui.

(Speaking of feng shui, please check out Tarot.com's Go Pink Central for ways to support the National Breast Cancer Awareness Month & get cool feng shui tips to improve your health with color [always my favorite subject] & home decor & diet! Oh, & the Health Foods by Zodiac Sign has reminded me of my need for protein, which I'm craving for all the more lately!)

Letting go can be quite painful, but it's the only way sometimes to make way for the new. I wish everyone the best in this endeavor, & let me share the 4 of Pentacles card from the Epicurean Tarot Recipes deck (as inspired by the classic Rider-Waite Smith) at this point, that is depicted as The Miser in the Osho Zen Tarot deck.

Are you resisting change that is truly needed?
We often cling to the familiar even when we know it's not for the best.

Even the spread I had for myself that my esoteric buddy Shiney helped me with a few days ago was saying I should just relax & go with the flow. Maybe you should, too. Especially while you're trying to desperately get over a breakup.

Anyway, on a rather unrelated note, I'm happy that this blog got nominated for a different category for the PostieCon Awards, haha!



Vote if you want, though I'm not sure if I'll even come close to becoming as popular as PostSecret. :P I don't really care, but I just think this is fun, especially for my 3rd blog anniversary. Thanks. ♥

Tarot readings will resume next Saturday, October 10th, btw, from 10am-8pm, so if anyone's interested, leave a comment & your contact details here. E-mail me at sp.lovecraft[at]gmail, too, if you wish. Please advise me a day before your intended time, so I can schedule you properly. I'm planning for a happy Halloween celebration, too, so if you have any ideas, let me know!

"and dreams are made of emotion"

Moon in Scorpio
Sep 20, 2009 to Sep 23, 2009

I've heard that two rutting elk can lock horns for over a day. Of course, humans in a power struggle can easily exceed that, especially during Scorpio's Moon. Power issues are raised. But what's likely hidden is the truth about where that power lies. One opponent overthrows another, hoping to capture power. But is it really there? That's the contemplation this Moontime. Here's a clue: there's a treasure house full of the good stuff, just like the fairy tales always said. And you don't have to steal or envy the ones who seem to have it. All you need is to find your personal key. This Moon says, "Let your intuition lead." If you're stuck on something, visualize whatever you're holding onto eighty years from now. Impermanence seems scary. But like an old snakeskin, after a loss comes something vibrant and new. Celebrate yourself as a passionate, evolving being.

Things are actually extra dreamy for me today. Plus it's the time of the month, & so despite my rearranging my bookshelf & finally throwing really outdated stuff out (Mercury, Saturn, & even Venus OMG now in Virgo at work) this weekend, I'm still stuck. But I'm a little bit more hopeful now than last week. I got books on candle-making & flower-arranging, which all lead to full-fledged gardening (& I've been considering on reviving my dad's orchid collection) & creating other romantic indulgences (bath stuff, anyone? Mmmm LOL) for gifts & my personal consumption, at the very least. I'm also thinking of cooking more often again, even if I lost touch with my gusto for it ever since my kid sister & dad passed away. But, yeah, well, I really should be more creative with my hands again, hehe, even if I really can't manage alone. Sigh. At least while the household help's still with us, huh? I'm glad she was able to clear the Southeast portion of the garden/house after all this time. I guess I'll take time out to rearrange & declutter everything by Friday, but don't worry, I'll make time for reading this Thursday (from 10am onwards) & Saturday (2pm-6pm). I'll also try to indulge myself as much as I can after all the fuss. Sigh. For some reason I kinda want to be left alone, unless there's a date in tow, LOL but this could be just my PMS talking.

But anyway, I'm thankful for everything I've had so far. I should give myself another birthday reading because the last one was actually damn accurate, haha. I hope to get my reading done professionally by somebody else, though, just to make sure. But I'll post mine soon, LOL, even if I have 3 other readings lined up. (I know, Mercury retrograde to blame!)

Oh, well, wish me luck. Funny how I've been thinking about The Star card earlier today, & then a Twitter friend decides to tweet about it! Yay, so apt! Right, Tin? ;)

"When the Star card is upright in a tarot spread it indicates that it is a good time for the questioner to have their natal birth chart & current astrological transits interpreted so that they may view a larger picture of their life patterns & how certain situations have come about in their life. The chart offers an external perspective of one's life and can help offer insight and encouragement.

"In a reading the Star card presents itself when the questioner has literally stripped himself or herself bare. The spilt water erupts as tears and all of the old, blocked emotions are accepted as pretence is given up. Often the Star card will symbolise a need to cry.

Oh, my, LOL. Yeah, hopefully the "spa for the soul" experience will push through, even if it will rather cost me much. Anything to feel a little bit better than yesterday... for my birthday. :))