sometimes the hardest person to trust is oneself

Where logic & analysis fail, intuition saves the day. I have to admit I’m still panic-stricken with self-doubt & -deprecation, so it’s always a vicious cycle for me to get reaaaaaally indecisive & make last-minute changes, because I can’t really deal with spontaneity sometimes. But everytime I’d pay careful attention to what my Inner Me has to let known right then & there, it’s always a big relief. There are moments I get upset when my hunches steer me clear of what I’ve originally planned ahead, but I know I should TRULY listen & feel them, & realize that this is all for my own benefit & well-being. The trouble lies when the lines blur between what my whims dictate & what my conscience advises.

on the path to reinvention, part 1

I guess in this modern world we can never stress the importance of taking our own sweet time, but we should, before we go kaput. Maybe we think drowning our sorrows in the hustle & bustle of work is a superb option, but it does not really go that way. I miss doing yoga. That helps clear my mind, even if the pain is too great sometimes & I can’t do all the poses just yet. But it helps me be more patient with myself, so there. Especially when I don’t have anyone else worthwhile to talk to, & I need to be in touch with my thoughts at some point, unlike when I’m getting a massage.

I should take some pointers from the Temperance card, on how to bridge the gap between my Inside Self & my Outside Self, as well as between my needs vs my wants, & then my fears vs my hopes, & my inner Child & older Adult, among other things I need to synchronize. Being a Libran is painstaking sometimes.



Isn’t she a beaut? Taken from the Feng Shui Tarot deck.

I just hate somewhat the fact that self-evolution is a lifelong process. But I guess the moral of the story should be one should never give up on the very being that propels him or her on this plane. The question, though, is, “HOW?”

8 of Coins + 4 of Swords = the daily grind

Being the Queen of Swords is not much fun as one grows older, but I think this was so dead on according to Llewellyn.com:

Even if she appears mild-mannered,
at her core she remains an independent, even rebellious spirit.

So this independent to the point of rebellious spirit is celebrating her fifth anniversary of immersing in the art of Tarot this month up to her birthday in September. What does she have to offer? You’ll know once her next scheduled vacation leaves come in a couple of weeks.

For now, this week has been a breeze, in the sense that there’s not much negativity unleashed during my day job, maybe because it’s the 4th of July, haha, even if the work hours are crazy to make up for the holiday gap. I dread the Yuletide then.

Anyway, it’s the drat time of the month again, & I feel half-dead & bloated. No wonder I’m crankier & thirstier than the usual, but at least I’m off my antibiotics now which were making my day job more difficult than supposed to, & what I need to do then is just drink more water.

My reading schedule for now will be every Saturday morning (post-shift) & Monday nights (before 9PM). E-mail requests can be granted but please allow 7-10 days for processing, hehe. Work is taking its toll, so I need dire concentration for optimum results.