on staying alive & well

Hi! I know it’s been a while since an actual update, but I’ve been very tired at work & preoccupied with crazy thoughts & ideas. I’m still very hopeful that I can bounce back quick, especially with another vacation leave in order this week. I’ll be available tomorrow afternoon for a reading, though, & I want to have enough energy to get through the day.

Here are a few links regarding that wish, & I’m totally loving Health.com, woohoo!

I also need to document my yoga & diet to monitor my progress more closely.

So far, I’ve been noticing that everytime I listen to upbeat tunes, things at work (where I spend 90% of my time lately) pick up. I’m sick & tired of complaining that I’m ill, & it nearly cost me my job a few weeks ago, so I want all the morale-boosters that I can come across with. I’m also trying not to focus on the word “need” so as not to think about desperation. It kinda helps that I have a new crush somewhat (or did it really take me a whole year to realize that I like the poor chap all along?) but it’s actually distracting me from myself. Or maybe I’m just not really accustomed to such intense feelings for someone I barely know, who would rather glare than smile at me on a regular basis. But the last time I saw him, I think he actually gave the subtlest smile ever in history, & that made me giddy. ♥ Acting like a blushing 16-year-old idiot with sparkly chinky eyes when gushing about the crush is better then, I guess, than a whimpering aging nearly-30-year-old buffoon who can’t even afford to smile much in the office because of her aching everything (head, shoulders, knees, tummy, throat, back).

Anyway, I got a tarot card for the old new crush that would probably explain his attraction to me, if it really does exist. For one thing, I’m stumped. What does this card have to say, aside from the fact that we’re both stuck in the same dreadmill & that we’re both struggling to take it easy in our lives?



Haha. I wonder if we really have a lot in common. ♥

I’m pretty excited about a whole lot of things even if it’s actually distracting me from my esoteric inclinations. I guess this is what humanity is all about & for. Maybe a makeover should really do wonders for my sanity, with my concerned mommy-figures’ prodding. Perhaps the scented candles & gaily-colored ribbons can wait. I must really attend to my needs first before zeroing in on others’, at least IRL. & even if I really haven’t worked on my to-do list yet, I really should relax. & this seems like a good motivation, especially for my upcoming birthday.